suicide

your beauty
above all else
has left me helpless
time and time again
i feel that i have died

when you hold
her hand in yours
you leave me frozen
stagnant.
despair, personified

i find his heart
i see his eyes
and his music warms my very soul
but you linger
a constant
my heart beats
for you, inside

why?
our lives intertwined
each life
intertwined
bread and wine
your mind in mine
unsatisfied

how hard is it,
do you find,
to decide?
between your loving life with her
or suicide
lovely suicide
by my side.